The Republitarian!

and pray for my mother. She flies from New Mexico to Boston later this month to have a residual tumor removed from her brain that is causing increased growth hormone levels. This is her second attempt at the surgery and we all hope it goes better to help alleviate some of her suffering.

Depression is a creepy thing. It’s not like you wake up one day and you realize you’re depressed and fix it. I already find myself falling into some bad patterns that would indicate such a thing could occur. The last thing I want to happen is for Megan and I to get depressed, start blaming each other, and then end up with marital problems…

Starting to really settle into the freedom that comes from not having regular employment and I’m starting to get comfortable knowing that I’m not the only one. Misery loves company. Hope everyone goes to church tomorrow and is nourished by The Word!

I just got a prayer request e-mail from church because a missionary family that has served in Italy for ten years has come back and have not been able to find jobs for awhile.

If you look at the Israelites in the Old Testament, many times God provided deliverance at the last moment. Prophets like Isaiah went naked for 3 years and most of the disciples faced far worse than a little unemployment.

Harry Reid did say today that only 36k people lost there jobs today….looks like he may lose his soon too.

Well, I decided to cancel the job interview I had lined up because I didn’t feel the job was something I wanted to be involved in. The highlight of my day will be tonight and is something I’ve been looking forward to for three weeks. My accountability partner is back from a missions trip to Africa and I’m going to lean on him heavily for counsel and discernment on what to do. Back in October, I felt a pull to go in a certain direction, but closed the door when other things looked more appealing.

Anyways, I’m going to do a little more waiting this time, and make sure what I’m supposed to do is ordained….whether I like it or not.

I’ve had several people, especially the wife, over the last few years bust my chops because I have no hobbies, no interests, and nothing that I really enjoy. I’ve often thought that people who get into things like their appearance, a ball team, or a hobby can easily fall into idolatry. Of course, maybe I’m the weird one……

Back in October I began to come to some very important realizations.

One day, I’ll be put in a box and planted in rows with a bunch of other people, and no one will care, except a few close friends and family…..and it probably won’t be but a few days till they don’t care. The realization is that my time here on earth is mine, and money can’t buy time. I’m going to spend my time on what I deem as important at the various stages of my life.

Well, telling the in-laws was fairly easy for my wife…but the kids were another story. The oldest two are trying to figure out out to help by getting jobs.

I do have a job interview scheduled for tomorrow.

I am getting the hang of this “not much to do” thing and kind of like it. I can see how people could get addicted to welfare….very easily.

Many people are going through unemployment, and now I get to join them. I thought I’d chronicle the experience and make a series out of it….it’s not like I have anything better to do! (Maybe I can get a job with a new online newspaper?)

Well, after exhausting almost all of our savings over the last 6 months, we are left with a van low on gas, the rent due, and I just got a bill that was double of what the quote was on a floor I needed to have fixed!

After spending yesterday trying to reassure my wife that things will be alright, and talking her back from the verge of tears on many occasions, I realize that I’m going to have to watch that I don’t ignore my own worries and get an ulcer.

We won’t be eligible for unemployment, so I don’t know what we are going to do…..ah, the uncertainties of life!

I’ll probably spend the rest of the day curled up in the fetal position praying to God that he will have mercy on this poor sinner……..

UPDATE….First stress zit appears on forehead.

This morning my boss and I parted ways. We are still good friends, but nevertheless, I have no job. I hope to find something decent within a few days, but you never know.